As many of us do at some point of their lives I recently thought about why we die. I will not argue that human death is caused by the deterioration of the cells in our bodies. However you might want to ask yourself why cells behave this way. There is just no logic behind this. If the human body can grow to its full size then it should be capable of reproducing healthy cells when the height of growth is reached. The facts that we get old and die are proof that there must be a reason. Although not scientific, this is my poetic way of saying we have to die sooner or later:

Born as giants
stuffed with soul and heart.
Every day alive
tears it apart.
If you put your heart and love
into some things that you do
you lose tiny bits of soul
even if the rewards seem few.
Although souls regrow over time
never reach their former magnitude
which leads one to conclude:
Souls are fading over time
but all the tiny bits we give
are moments we like to relive.
They bring happiness to -
and all around us.
Though we can’t live
without our souls and thus,
leave the world
as empty shells -
just a bunch of body cells.
Given every bit away
but – believe me –
it’s okay!

(The title can be seen as a tribute to Supertramp)

Für Sonja – Ich hoffe es geht dir gut!

Whenever you reasoned
whether what you do is right or wrong -
You just missed the crux.
Whenever you were weak
and you lost your self-esteem -
The reason was you all along.
I have never seen
a life so filled of misery -
Your life i wouldn’t want to live.
Whatever you did
the sadness came along with you -
Your lack of passion made you weak.
The misery you thought you had
was only in your head -
Never ever there was life in what you did.
But the energy you never had
was in you all along -
You just never dared do use your power.
The few moments that you shone
the entity I loved in you -
Your soul leaked through your wall.
Your life force let you down
but know, now and forever -
You are strong, just afraid of yourself.
Let you soul and spirit guide you
feel the energy that surges in you -
When your actions are one with you heart’s desire.

Spots of salt are cracking dry
where once the flow dripped off the chin.
Teardrops gone their final journey
from a tear sac that is parched.
Once they wept and cryed to sleep
but life took the water from the eyes.
The heavy feeling in the heart
pushed down the hopes within.
Sunken fears keep pulling from below
and wish to take the soul with them.
A soul so tiered from of a way
cut to the quick so many times.
So it sets out to a journey with no return
to a place unreachable.
The ballast of life still slowing down
but the end before the eyes.
Settle down old worn out soul
lay your head down somewhere nice.
Cry once more and cry out loud
and then rest for eternity.

If only I could tell you some time
when you give me the chance
and allow me to -
To tell you how much I love you
to explain why there is no reason -
no reason at all.
Like I’ve known you all my live
I feel so empty when you’re gone -
though you where never there.
I need you, just like you need me
without each other we are nothing -
nothing but incomplete.
Don’t you feel this desire in your chest
can’t you see what you’re without me -
a hopeless empty shell.
Fill me with your open heart
complete me with your soul -
let me be whole – With You.

it’s not fair
but never was
seeding cracks
till you break
though
I never meant to hurt you
Please forgive me
someday
’til then
cry for your loss
and my tears
shall join yours
for while your soul bleeds
I will cry for you too.

[...]
Hope decays
Generations disappear
Washed away
As a nation simply stares

Don’t want to reach for me do you?
I mean nothing to you
The Little Things Give You Away
But now there will be no mistaking
The levees are breaking
All you’ve ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you
And six feet under water
I do
All you’ve ever wanted
Was someone to truly look up to you
And six feet under ground now I
Now I do
[...]

(Linkin Park – The little things give you away)

Can’t you see
my heart is bleeding
before you
But don’t ask why
because that would make me cry
I know you feeling of emptyness
when your heart seems hollow
All you need is someone
Something to hold on
to stop the meaningless
to give sense.
I’m not sure
whether I’m the right person
to fill that spot
where there is missing something in your soul
I can’t tell whether I’m what you’re looking for
There are moment I want you by my side
but there are times
when there can’t be enough distance
between the two of us
Don’t get me wrong
I like you more than I should
but that’s the reason why
I care for you
The reason I don’t want
you to get hurt.
I don’t want to harm you.
You’d better back off
before that happens
I can’t guarantee for your safty
once you get close to me
And If I’d hurt you
I would hate myself
and I would feel the same pain you do
Pain it is when you retch my soul
with names and guys I don’t know
Why do you do this to me?
Am I such a bad person?
Or is it you who wants to make me jealous
Stop that – don’t do that
It hurts and it makes my heart leak
so it bleeds -
But you don’t even notice.