Here I am in an awkward position
I only hope you will believe and understand me

I promised to you I would not betray you
but I needed to do the insane to refind my sanity

In my eyes it’s not betrayal
our relationship was betrayal to myself.

You would say it’s wrong
and if I listened to reason I had to agree.

But how can I say something is wrong -
If I don’t feel anything for anyone?
What if I can’t tell the difference?

It’s not right – I know as much
I lost my way and for that I hate myself.

I just tried to find the parts that I lost
to be whole again for you and you alone

Now I know the emptiness inside me
has got nothing to do with you.

And I wish I could undo the things that I’ve done
but without them I still wouldn’t know where I stand

My heart is empty
no sign of an end ahead.

If you must hate me for all this
then I lost you without intend.

I’m so sorry that this happened
to disappoint you wasn’t my intention
but if you go – I wish you best of luck

Though at least I can now look for reasons somewhere else -
if you still want me – that is.

Harsh words at the wrong time and place but

Sometimes you know I over react
And what I say is not a matter of fact
And I wish that I could take it all back (Meat Loaf – Did I say that)

The fear in my heart tells me someday

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat (Timbaland – Apologize)

I know it’s not fair to put my frustration on you though you

Don’t wanna reach for me do you
I mean nothing to you
The little things give you away
And now there would be no mistaken (Linkin Park – The little things give you away)

there simply are topics that hurt when

You ‘re asking yourself why
You feel you can’t get by
You feel you ‘re crawling on your knees (Reamonn – Sometimes)

Whatever I said and whatever I’ll say – remember:

You’ll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You’ll be here in my heart
Always (Phil Collins – You’ll be in my heart)

Just forgive me another time.