My unforgetable, unforgiveable past
a dream that came true but went bad.
I’d give up everything
to get back what I lost that day.
In my head I’m trying to convince myself
you and me
imagining how it could be –
we have a chance -
for all we need is the love we share.
Though silently and every time anew
doubt sneaks in my thoughts.
The knowledge that it’s not enough
that love alone will not suffice
My dreams can tell me otherwise
but woven into my feelings for you
always present the failiors of the past
- lurking in the shadows.
Being with you is the one thing that
after all these years
I still yearn for
the same way I did
on the first day I met you.
The attraction between us is unbearable
but to be with you
is a desire I must never give into.
Although mutual the feelings may be
we have to stay apart
for I can’t be with you or I’ll crack.
The last time losing you made me so sad
it almost drove me mad.
So against all our hearts desire
I have to do the one sane thing
and keep us apart.
I only wish
- sometimes -
to be insane.

like noone else in this world
you know i love you
and i just can’t hear your sadness
because it makes me sad too.
as long as you cry
as long as you’re in vain
i feel the same pain.
i know that makes me
kind of a bad friend
but find someone else
who feels about you the same way
the way i do
the way i did for a long time now.
why can’t you just see that
beyond all this cynicism and
below that surface of anger
behind this mask of bitterness
there is someone
who will do anything for you
if it’s in his power to.
Don’t be afraid
and have no fear
because I will be here
for you

Never before
I loved somebody
the way I love you.
Unconditional true
and strong
is how I feel about you.
Still we parted
some time ago.
And now what we have
is not enough to depend on.
It’s a sad story
of its own,
told by the desire of my heart
So kiss me love
for the last time
and say goodbye.

It’s like I get up
and I don’t know why.
I eat, I drink, I think, I learn -
but why?
I don’t understand this life.
I don’t understand the people I meet.
Things are so simple
but in their minds there are contradictions.
Why can’t you just take an opportunity
that life offers you?

So I go on -
I do the stuff I do every single day of my life
I think of you while pretending to be as normal as usual.
I don’t want to play this role
in this fucked up game of love.
I want you – that’s all.
But your thoughts seem more troubled than mine.
That’s the reason why I’m sad -
because you are.