The words go lost in our discussions
the meaning – unseen, hidden behind fears.
Sticking needles in my flesh
every time we argue.
Why we lose our temper,
and tease each other to insanity
is a mystery and simplicity.
Covered up in all my arguments
lies the truth that separates us.
An unknown question -
noone dares to phrase,
for the answer would have consequences.
The nameless bond that exists between us
might just shatter.
Though the answer is “just” love
and has always been – “just” love
love in all its varieties.

This is not me telling you what to do
because who am I to do so?
This is not me chumming up with you
I just open up my heart.
This is me showing my affection,
telling you how much I care.
Don’t ever get confused in all those words
since they actually all mean the same.
Take good care – remember me
and I promise: I will do the same.

Out of place
and out of time.
They talk
but will not listen.
Am I invisible,
or am I just ignored?
I wonder what is worse.
Alone and misunderstood -
but it’s not my fault;
It’s you who turns a blind eye.
It’s me telling you the story of my life,
but you take a rain check.
I’m losing hope here,
purged of faith.
I’m crying -
inwardly.
Listen up!
Feel my heart’s tune.
And even if it is a requiem
it’s melody that wants to be heard.
So if you still want me –
You should tell me
because I might forget;
and feel unwelcome
in your presence,
in your home,
your heart.

A simple touch to crumble worlds
shaky fingers before the truth.
What if one contact could change everything?
The world around might shatter and dissolve,
leaving nothing behind that is known to mankind.
The fear of the unknown fills the mind,
is truth worth this sacrifice?
For all the bad that’s happening here,
good does prevail sometimes.
Could you break the world with a simple touch -
sacrifice the well known illusion?
Would you hesitate to stay in wonderland
or is there nothing you could lose?
Is it worth by any means
or would you draw back your fingers?

A thought that struck me from behind
there is never nothing going on inside my mind.
There is not ever peace inside my head
a raging war that drives me mad.
The thoughts are crashing down on me
no escape – no way to flee.
All the memories I wish I did not keep
flowing through me even when I sleep.
I work, I rest, I dream
yearning so for satisfaction
disregarding any esteem
the ony constant is distraction.

There is nothing you can say to change my mind.
There is nothing you can do to make it right.

Now don’t tell me what I do is wrong
it took awhile to become this strong.
Don’t criticize every word I say
because You made me become this way.

There is nothing you can say to change my mind.
There is nothing you can do to make it right.

Between the friend that you once sought
and the person in your thought
lies the ugly truth of you
and it’s in every little thing you do.

There is nothing you can say to change my mind.
There is nothing you can do to make it right.

There is no way that you would show regret
it makes it even harder to forget
everything you give as dole
is an excuse to regale your soul.

Keeping in the boiling rage is the hardest part of the state I’m in.
This blinding hate and sadness that took over my mind
it’s like a vile beast waiting for a chance
a chance to breach my shell.
My discipline and quiet are rapidly fading.
Maintaining the illusion of my identity
is so heavy that it hurts every inch of my body and mind.
I am at the brink of sanity and still accelerating
to the other side
whatever might await me there.
I wish I was in another place
another time – and life.
But you who look at me and say you know me
you don’t see the mess that’s raging in my head.
My calm surface might crack here and there
but the eruption of my temper is directed to the inside.
Even if it was the fault of someone else
and I had all reason to share my mood with them
it’s simply not the way I am
and it’s not the way I want to be like.
I’m witholding everything in my core
handling my misery in silence
on my own and alone -
so in the end the only one who will suffer is me.

Für Melanie – Ich liebe Dich!

Beautiful rose
the time of your bloom
has reached its crown.
Before soon
the grasp of decay
will reach for you.
Already the petals of your blossom
are abandoning their glorious colors.
Life is fading
from your radiant sight.
Corruption claims
the shining tint.
My flower is wilting
withering away to dust.
Your leaves are rotting slowly
From the tip of each leaf
to the stem, to the roots -
greedily, corroding your delicate features.
In this time my beauty
count on me to water your roots
let me be the soil for your existence.
Because to see you in bright shape again
and to heal you is my wish.
So I yearn to revive
the prime of your life.

“Man sieht nur mit dem Herzen gut. Das Wesentliche ist für die Augen unsichtbar” (Der kleine Prinz / Le petit Prince, Antoine de Saint-Exupéry)

You left in tears
and I don’t know
when I will see you again.
We made a mess today
but so we do quite often.
It’s just the way you went
without a kiss or proper goodbye.
You rushed away
left me alone -
but I don’t know what to do
when you’re gone.
I found your toothbrush
in my cup.
And even if I know
it doesn’t mean a thing to you
it makes me happy
to see your stuff
lying all about my place.
Sure it looks like hell
in here
But it gives me a warming comfort
that you will return to me
that I will see you
yet again.

I’m back again and all alone
where ever you are – you are gone
I miss you between ravioli and an egg
I miss you lying on my bed
I miss you between the door and the hinge
I miss the times when we clinch
I miss you from daybreak on
to my last thought dozing until gone
I just wish you would be here
even if it is for mere
that I can miss you one more time
when one of us is leaving – both reduced to the smallest prime

This is a very loose translation of a quite popular song in Germany. The idea was to take something that is torture to the ear and recreate it to make something good from it. This idea came to me when I heard a couple of songs and realized that this particular song seemed like a bad sequence made from bits of good songs and movie scenes. Actually, the original lyric was so bad – and in some parts just untranslateable – so I had to intervene. I put the refrain to the bottom of the text – so you don’t realize which song this is right away. Try to enjoy the words and if you really don’t know what song this is – post a comment. I’d like to call this “sunshine” for the time being. Here we go.

~ sunshine ~

Baby you’re the one whom I always dreamed about
your lips taste like ice on a hot sunday.
Listen to me when I’m telling you that you mean the world to me
and when you’re gone then nothing can keep me here.

It was love on first sight
your respect is so irreplaceable for me
we were walking hand in hand on an endless strand.

Girl you’re the one whom I need and desire
beside you I feel like I’m nothing
and if you think all this is a lie
then you thought wrong because I love you.

*refrain*

*refrain*

I’m missing your breath on my body
your breath that touched me so softly
the breath that seduced my heart.
No matter what might happen
I will get the starry sky for you.
You’re the end of the rainbow
I will bring you all the luck from heaven.
I can’t be without you
we have to reunite.

*refrain*

*refrain*

*refrain*

Just so you know – I love you baby

Where are you my sunshine?

I love you

refrain:
Where are you my sunshine
I’m looking for you – i’m missing you
I only feel respect for you
just so you know: I love you