I want to sleep but I can’t.
It’s not that I lack tiredness but the fact that there should be more than this.
Why sleep when there is nothing worth dreaming about?
There is never nothing going on but nothing ever happens.
At least nothing what would could justify a standstill of several hours.
Light. Give me light. Be my star.
In this boring gray mist I need your light for distraction.
Show me around in your life and entertain me before i become numb.
Again then – sooner or later – back in solitude.
I’m sitting here – waiting – waiting for the world to change.

Am I insane? ‘Ever thought about that question? ‘Ever thought about what that actually means?
When somebody is insane the person doesn’t fit in any common standard known to society. However there is a possibility everybody else is insane and the person who just doesn’t fit in the system is the only sane person. How would you know? Who defines what is sane and what is not? Isn’t there something between different from the others and insane. Sometimes it doesn’t look that way. But then it’s said that when somebody goes insane the person believes he’s becoming sane.
Doesn’t that mean that if you know you’re going insane or you are insane, you realize the difference between what should be and what is relating to the common known standard? Realizing this a person can’t really be insane – just different.
So tell me – Am I insane? Or am I not? Just think about it. Maybe you’re the one insane when you try to judge my sanity.

The clouded sky covers the sun.
Fading light of a dying day
leaves everything in a bloody red gloom.
The ebony of darkness soon will fall on everything.
When the least shadows fade into the continuous black -
of all that seemed so important -
nothing can be seen.
Night casts its magic spell upon us
and delivers us from our fears and hopes
It takes apart our dreams and visions
leaving us blind – vulnerable to evil.
Still peaceful is the silence of dark
far above the stars will shine
as if they want to say “you’re not alone”.
And every one of them wants to be brightest it seems.
Just by the look of them they can tell
that we are just a little part of something enormous.

While time flows on
slowly the shadows rise again
and with them all that is so much more a danger to us
than what dwells in the hiding of the night -
all that is so unimportant compared to the whole epus.
While the sun shines so bright and the sky’s so blue
We tend to forget who we are and what we do
When the stars can’t be seen we are the one who want to shine
In this useless attempt to become what we crave for
never should we forget
what we can’t see most of the time
but is still there far beyond
to keep our feet on the ground
and root us to the tiny peace of earth we live on.

The last that ever she saw him
Carried away by a moonlight shadow
He passed on worried and warning
Carried away by a moonlight shadow.
Lost in a river last saturday night
Far away on the other side.
He was caught in the middle of a desperate fight
And she couldn’t find how to push through

The trees that whisper in the evening
Carried away by a moonlight shadow
Sing a song of sorrow and grieving
Carried away by a moonlight shadow
All she saw was a silhouette of a gun
Far away on the other side.
He was shot six times by a man on the run
And she couldn’t find how to push through
[...]

(Mike Oldfield – Moonlight Shadow)

Some say things which they don’t mean
some show feelings that they don’t have
Some pretend to be someone they aren’t
But my heart is pure
my heart is crystalline – breakable
My feelings are pure
my pain is real
my thoughts are torture
my lyrics are true
Some don’t know about the thoughts I have
and I don’t blame them
It is me who craves for their simplicity
It is me who wants to become stupid enough
to get rid of these feelings
to get rid of these thoughts
to get rid of this life

Don’t judge people by what they say
judge them by the way they act
Don’t try to change people into the way you want them
because it will only change yourself
Don’t try to change yourself
because you will change whether you want it or not
Don’t try to avoid mistakes
they’re what you’re made of
Don’t try to change the past
the past changed you
Don’t cry for pain
you will feel pain soon enough
Don’t try to hide pain
it will only be consealed unter your skin an eat you up from the inside
Don’t try to be perfect
because you’re not
Don’t try to find a sense in life
beacause there won’t be any unless you create one
Don’t compare yourself with others
they are not similar to you
Don’t sell yourself
it will only fill your purse
Don’t think too much
it will make you mad and sad
Don’t tell me you love me
unless you are a hundred percent sure

Just don’t try – to bend the spoon.

In some way live is a journey.
People travel from location to location – from event to event. Without a rest we experience one highlight after another. The funny thing about it is that this life is more passive than everything else I’ve ever seen. People don’t live their own lifes. They consume the highlights of others – they consume the show that’s offered by live itself. People act like tourists of life standing behind fences – looking at sights. Sights which are the the memories and lifes of others.
What wouldn’t I give to break this habit? I don’t want that kind of life. I just want to live for myself.
Quit playing tourist of life. Don’t lean back and enjoy the show. Think your own thoughts. Live your own life.

[...]Memories they keep coming through
The good ones hurt more
Than the bad ones do [...]

(Lyrics by A-Ha – Forever not yours)

This European air,
It always warms my face,
I wish I could buy some.

I will bring you stories,
And bleary eyed photos,
Like a regular tourist.

We don’t go breaking down,
I feel like nothing ever will,
We don’t go breaking down,
I feel like nothing.

Suitcases down our street,
Are rolling once again,
I roll away with them,
Five days inside Zoo York,
To lose myself with friends,
I’m nowhere without you.

We don’t go breaking down,
I feel like nothing ever will,
We don’t go breaking down
(I don’t believe)
I feel like nothing ever will,(we will)
We will never go breaking down,
I feel like nothing.

Just wanna be with you, my baby
[...]

I’m counting up the cost of time,
And will embrace our time away,
We cannot save ourselves alone,
Or rely on a mobile phone.

Just wanna be with you, my baby
[...]

(Lyrics by Athlete – Tourist)